Hi Unshoreandscared, That was good of your daughter to make you laugh and be so understanding. We need that from those closest from us. My husband is usually really good but this morning he is like a bear with a sore head. What it is, is he is usually up before me and on the computer all nice and quiet and contemplating his day, and there i was having to iron something for going out, as normally i dont do heaps of ironing as i am too tired for that sort of thing. Anyway i didnt ask him to put the ironing board away, although he usually would do, but after all his whinging about its usually alot quieter in the mornings, he offered to put the iron and ironing board away so to preserve energy of course i said yes please. The reason why i am up so early is that i have a doctors appointment. I had MRSA in my ears a few years back and have had it recurr several times since then. I think i may have it now, so i am going to get another test. I picked it up in hospital, the hospitals in the Uk are rife with superbugs at the moment, and my hospital is one of the bottom three for the most superbugs. My hearing isnt good at the best of times, and i do get confused when alot of noise is happening. But my husbands hearing, Well!!!, he is going deaf for sure even if he wont admit it. Anyway i will pray for you that you get this sorted, and that your hearing problem does improve. I find sometimes if i am stressed that i am thinking of so many other things that i dont hear what someone is saying to me at the time. I am sure this isnt the case with yourself though, keep persevering to find out what is happening wont you? its all to easy for doctors to dismiss something especially if it doesnt seem that important to them or life threatening. I hate going to the doctors as i always have several things i have to ask about, and then i think he must think i have either been saving these things up, or made them up just for the visit. I have an infection of some sort at the moment, as i have been really unwell, the symptoms are the same as the time i had pneumonia before, trouble is, i dont know if you know this but if you are on steroids, the steroids mask infections so its hard to tell until the infection has really taken great hold, then it takes even longer to get better, but with my doctor i am quite lucky, as he will write me a prescription, and tell me not to use it until i feel i absolutely have to which makes sense. I dont want to be using antibiotics unless i have to, as i am allergic to all but one, and if we overuse them our bodies get used to them and dont work anymore. I am going to be so tired after my doctors visit today, i also have to pick some presents up from Boots the chemist that i have reserved online, well at least i dont have to look for what i want. Although i have one more present i need to get today, as i have a lady who comes round to support me regularly, i need a token gift for her. And when you dont feel well, its the last thing you want to be doing isnt it? Well done for being on the PTA, i couldnt do that, mind due i dont have children, so whose to say i might if i had got children. I became infertile after months of chemotherapy. I do have a little girl come to stay when i am well though, she has been coming here since she was three years old, she is nine now. Its a friend of our's daughter who is a male, who looks after her all alone, she has no mother, so he asked me if i would become her female role model which is a great honour to be asked, if she has anything female she wants to ask she comes to me. So i do have a sort of daughter. Anyway, i have deviated from the subject, i do hope you start to improve soon, take care, look after yourself, love and hugs Astrid40xoxox