Hello everyone, i haven't been on line for some time ( well maybe just to read and try to get back into the feel of talking with or to someone / anyone , but that didn't work . Every since April / May ( i forget ) , doctor appointments have been overwhelmming and i go to bed and sleep late , wake up and it's time to start it all over again with maybe just enough time to shower eat , and take a Quick Breath and then it's back to the doctor office i go . Well , last week Jully 14th , maked a day that i thought would NEVER come back to me ( previous weeks of TEST's of all sorts) ,i went to get my results from the biopsy of the breast ( weeks of waiting and trying not to think about it ) , sitting there with smiles of joy knowing that there is nothing out of the norm wrong from the outside about my breast , BUT this crazy body on the inside is a total different world , smile . The Director, of the cancer center came in , ( Yes! my heart fell on the floor and jump through the window from the 9th floor) , she starts with the friendly conversation, of course my mouth says the answers to her question, but my MIND was LIKE REALLY am not here for this- WHAT are the results ? She sighs and ask this question, " WHO is here with you?" My Mind went crazy, running out the room go down the hall to the stair's the elevator take's a long time and it is hard for me to walk at times so to think about running- HAHA!!! So now am calling my son (who went with me to have the biopsy) he is at work he don't take the call, he sent me a text saying," Not now am in a meeting" - WHAT??????? So now am forced to call my daughter ,who is a water balloon, oh my she don't answer OMG!!! I scream LOUD, the doctor wanted to give me something to relax me, sbut this guy and his wife who was sitting in the waiting room before went to the back was now standing by my door as i entered into the hall, i just slide down the wall to the floor ,they both grabbed be with hugs saying it's going to be okay!! Yes!!! The day that LUPUS came into my LIFE(Feb. 7,2011) was the 1st day of horror and JULY 14,2014, became the 2nd day of HORROR in my LIFE. By the time i made it home , i was no good to say nothing to my (Grown kids - i was speechless). So after 3 (almost 4 years), dealing with LUPUS, " I have the EARLY STAGE of BREAST CANCER". Where does this enD?.......Beverly L.
Oh hon, I'm so sorry to hear this! ::hugs very tight:: And I am so sorry to know that you had to face it alone like that! I wish I could have been there for you. I have no words, since words aren't enough. That's what hugs are for. Wish I could hug you in person! Please hang in there... it's all so scary and daunting and dark, but you can see your way through. Just hang on. ::hugs more::
I’m so sorry! Sending hugs and positive thoughts xoxo
I’m so sorry to hear! Praying for you!!! 
Send all positive thoughts your way. I just got the results from the call back ultrasound stating “it’s probably not cancer, but come back in 6 months just in case.”
A ray of light for you is that breast cancer, especially when caught early like yours, has a great rate of success with treatment and yes even cures So prayers that all will go well for you in this next journey Hang in there
Thank you for your warm thoughts , Thank you my friend...Beverly L.
poobie said:
A ray of light for you is that breast cancer, especially when caught early like yours, has a great rate of success with treatment and yes even cures So prayers that all will go well for you in this next journey Hang in there
Thank you ! and Make sure that you do that ?! That was the same thing that went on with me , exactly like that !!! Stay on top of it cause 6mths. , is just days for us with LUPUS and now look at me 6mths later ....Beverly L.
BakoJenny said:
Send all positive thoughts your way. I just got the results from the call back ultrasound stating "it's probably not cancer, but come back in 6 months just in case."
Thank you ! Am a fighter !! Beverly L.
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'm so sorry to hear! Praying for you!!! :)
Thanks for the HUG , i do feel it !!! - smile ...Beverly L.
Talencia said:
Oh hon, I'm so sorry to hear this! ::hugs very tight:: And I am so sorry to know that you had to face it alone like that! I wish I could have been there for you. I have no words, since words aren't enough. That's what hugs are for. Wish I could hug you in person! Please hang in there... it's all so scary and daunting and dark, but you can see your way through. Just hang on. ::hugs more::
Thanks Ann A., i have been waiting really for a response from you! Thanks for sending your prayer's, i was on my way to bed and something said," Check your e-mail" , Thanks, we are true connected - smile. This is something that i would like to talk with you 2morrow about , if you are able ( we have had conversation's previously and i love your strength ). I will be back home give or take 1-2 pm/et and i will send you a direct HELLO am HOME message (if you are able ?) Well , am going to bed now 2morrow is only hours away and i have to get up around 7:30am/et . Talk with you 2morrow, and again Thank you...Beverly L.
Ann A. said:
Dear Beverly, I am so sorry. Love, hugs, and prayers.
Sending big hugs and many prayers for this new adventure. Thank god it was caught early and with that— there is great success!
So sorry to hear you are going thru this! Never feel alone because there are plenty of people who love you and plenty of prayers and thoughts, even if they aren’t physically there with you. Know you are loved. I am glad to see you post it is early stages. You will get thru this the same way you are getting thru lupus, one day at a time. Totally sucks but you can do it!
So sorry Beverly, sending you prayers and big hugs! Wish you didn't have to go through this.
My sister is a 5+ year survivor. She was stage 2 at diagnosis and is still going strong. When it is caught early it is very curable. I did tons of research when she was fighting it and you will get through it. Gentle hugs, Annemarie
This is NOT a death sentence! If you have continued to survive with lupus, you will do so with your latest diagnosis. Be strong and hard!
*pray hard
Hugs and prayers.
I sat at work reading your story and tears just started to flow. I am so sorry to hear you have to deal with this alone. I want to thank you for having the courage to write and re-live that day with us. I send my prayers to you.
Beverly, I am so sorry...this just isn't fair....I find it hard to come up with the right words. Just let your feelings out....I pray that you will be better soon. LupanCatwoman Gail