I am a big believer that every thing happens for a reason. Each and every event in our life is an opportunity to grow in spirit and evolve as a human being.
If that is true, what is our lesson in dealing with this challenging disease? Each and every 'Lupie' I have met seems to be a very giving, nuturing type person. The type of person who gets a great deal of pleasure from giving rather than taking.
I am that type of person. For sixteen years I gave everything I had into helping my husband become one of Australia's top horsemen. When I met him he had nothing but a dream. I helped him make that dream a reality.
I thought I was doing it for 'us' and our three children, but then he met someone else. Someone who didn't have young children, who was younger, more attractive and who looked after themselves.
I was given twelve hours notice to move out of the house that we were living in. Don't worry, I was over it a long time ago. In fact, looking back the woman probably did me a favour. I don't clean stables anymore. Except my own two.
After my marriage unexpectively broke up, I had the job of raising children on my own. I won't bore you with the details other than to say it was tough at times.
I believe I have been dealt this disease because I have absolutely no choice but to look after myself.
Remember the saying 'Pride Before a Fall?'. A few days ago I was bragging that I had ridden my horse. Yay!. Today I rode again. My son said "Mom, Don't ride out of the arena". But I knew better, so up the road I went.
My horse shied at something in the grass and then he bucked. Over and down I went - Splat! - Flat on my back. Right on the lower right hand side where I already have a buldging disc.
So here I am, In agony!! I have no choice but to look after myself and maybe I will listen to advice a little better in the future as well.
I sincerley hope you have a lot less pain than me atm. LOL!