Some of you know how hard I have been working to hold it together since I discovered that my insides are falling out. I have already seen two physicians and now I have now been referred to the colorectal surgeon. I see him tomorrow at 9:00am. I have refused to anticipate the worse and have done everything that I know how to do to stay in the moment, resisting the decline into either depression or anxiety.
Some of you even know that I when I found myself snapping at people, places, and things I decided to do the 24 Hour Happy (I am on 2:00am - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkSyXfsXSzo ) to try and keep from slipping into the place where monsters wait for those of us who live for decades with chronic illness and pain.
As my discomfort grows and tomorrow's appointment nears, it becomes more and more difficult to fight the demons that are crawling up out of the pit on my own. So I am turning this group for support. Please pray for me. I have lots of questions about my exact diagnosis, the type of surgery that he will advise, and the success rate for that type of surgery. I had three surgeries last year and my PCP said no more for a while. So, I can even find myself worrying about the extent to which I am strong enough to withstand another surgery at this point in my life. I have had so many.
But tonight I need to sleep so that I can drive myself to my early morning appointment. That is all that I am asking for right now: A Good Night's Sleep and Safe Drive in the Morning.
Please Pray for Me. Pray those night creeping demons back down into the pit. I am singing, "Its Me. It's Me Oh Lord Standing in the Need of Prayer.
Lord, please hold Ann A close to You! Surround her with Your Unfailing Love and Healing! Remove the evil one's presence! Guard her with your Army of Heavenly Angels. Shield her and protect her with the Sword of Your Word! Lord, I pray for healing. That you will bless the doctors and staff and Ann A with healing and Your Divine Miracles and Blessings! In Jesus, My Risen Lord and Savior's name, I ask & pray! Amen
Dear lord just reach out and touch Anna A. Wrap your arm around her and comfort her that she may not go to that dark place. In Jesus name I pray amen. I will keep you prayer
I BELIEVE ... and I KNOW ... that God hears and answers prayers........
I am praying that the Lord heals and strengthens and comforts you ... and that you will feel the presence of the Holy Spirit in your body working to restore you to good health ......
Keep the faith and keep on praising the Lord .......
Let us know how it all goes with the appointment! Wishing you the best! I have a wouderful colorectal surgeon here at the Cleveland clinic in Florida. I’m nine weeks out from surgery myself. His name is Eric Weiss. He is second in the nation and people travel from all over to see him. God found him for me! I’m am so blessed the surgery changed my life.
Dear Ann, You are such a strong, wise, and comforting woman to all of us. God IS holding you and giving you strength but you are at a point of not feeling that right now. So I pray that Gods' overpowering love and strength is given to you today. You are probably at the doctor's office right now but I am praying that all will be made clear to you. The doctor will be kind and caring and the explanations from him will be clear. Prayers, love, and gentle hugs are flying your way.
Ann....Positive energy is headed your way from my heart. You are a very special person to me here on the LWL site. You do so much good for so many others....surely this will come back to you. Please update? XXOO LupanCatWoman
