Yesterday was my very first time to see a self proclaimed vampire. I believed her after she ordered 8 vials of blood to be drawn. Lol I am a bit worried, as she mentioned that she was seeing something else, beyond lupus. Some kind of muscle disease. She would not talk about it further other than to say she sees symptoms of both, and assured me that She was not saying that I don’t have lupus, but that I need to be prepared for other things being at the party. I was glad that the swelling in my finger joints went down, but she did not get to see the sausage fingers or the giant red knuckles I normally deal with. When she grabbed my hand and started feeling around, I did what I normally do; pretend it does not hurt so I don’t scare the person hurting me. That might have been bad, I decided, because she is the rhemy, not my niece wanting to hold my hand or my mom thinking she is being nice by rubbing it.
The doc was also very concerned over my lungs. Shortness of breath, cough, clear mucus, pain in chest. Heck, I am concerned too. So she is sending me to get a CT. I really hate those. It will be at least a week before I do that. Insurance wants her to look at my x-ray from Nov first. Makes sence.
The best parties that she upped my prednisone to 20mg a day. 10 was hard to live on. The 20 was perfect. Maybe that sounds scary, but I like functioning way too much to be worried yet. After all, I am not eating much on the 10, and my stomach is always sour. I am getting the dizziness again, which I hate, and my body hurts more. I can take the pain, but why when I can have a little less?
I am worried about the little things I did not get to tell her, like the month sores that went away on Prednisone, or the wierd white film on my tongue. The strangest is the smell of cigarette smoke when I cough, yet I have never been a smoker. She listened, and was very open with me, but the cognative process only pushes so much through the fog these days. Maybe my symptom log will help next time? How do you guys do it? I need suggestions. Thisis all so new to me. I was getting strange looks from all the older patients in the waiting room. Lol